Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Prayer For My Angels...

© Pollard


Angels are not perfect, they are loving.
They work hard for our dreams, our fears and our humanity.
They take the shape of our most brilliant intentions and our most brutal failures.
Angels hold no vision of their own.
They accumulate and disperse the light of our hope and aspirations.

Angels have walked everywhere we have and cannot go where we have not, whether in our minds, bodies or souls.

My angels I honour your caring hands, your silent patience, your invisible worship, your whispered encouragement and your eternal commitment of serve and non-judgment.
You make my light worth living.


Sunday, June 7, 2009

If Today Was Your Last Day...Apologies


This being my last day I just wanted to say...I love you in the following way:

I am sorry I could not be everything you wanted
I am sorry I could not be everything you needed
I am sorry I could not give you everything you wanted
I am sorry I could not give you everything you needed

I am sorry for not always listening to you
I am sorry for not always hearing you
I am sorry I did not always give you my best
I am sorry I did not always try my best for you

I am sorry I took you for granted
I am sorry that I was not enough

I am sorry that I hurt you
I am sorry for ever wanting to hurt you
I am sorry that I caused you pain

I am sorry that I loved another
I am sorry that I sought another

I am sorry that I could not help you achieve your dream

I am sorry for my silence when you needed sound
I am sorry for my fears when you needed courage
I am sorry for being a boy when you needed a man
I am sorry for the many times I've said "No", when I knew you needed a "Yes"

I am sorry for not doing all the things I said I would
I am sorry for not always doing the things that I knew I could do

I am sorry I lied
I am sorry I made you cry
I am sorry I disappointed you
I am sorry I embarrassed you
I am sorry I ever judged you
I am sorry that I kept many of my secrets from you
I am sorry that I was not all that I promised I would be
I am sorry that I did not "let you in"

I am sorry I did not hug you more
I am sorry I did not love you more
I am sorry I did not say all of this to you before
Thank you for sharing in my life.

I love you.